Roman Holiday

first i just want to wish everyone a happy new year. another year gone by. time goes fast, especially when you have kids. one day they are little babies that keep you up all night and then like the next day it seems, they are nine year olds with attitude. whats everyone's new year celebration plans? me, just staying home with the boys. they always try to stay up til midnight and never make it. i must say that i am a little sad this year, first year that i don't have someone to kiss at midnight.

today is my last day at this job. i am trying to get all the work done. i should say i'm trying to get motivated to get the work done. well, that wasn't very nice, someone just hung up on me. anyways...listening to the new U2 cd. i like it, i bought it for myself for christmas. i hope i will be able to blog when i start my new job.

weather is a bit icky here today. rainy and very windy. the sun was only out for a short time yesterday.

talked to butthead (ex) on tuesday. i must say for the first time in years, he didn't upset me. the conversation was full of how i have ruined his life, and what a cold, bitter, empty person i am, how the only men i will ever attract are scums who will treat me like crap. on and on..he kept trying to put me down anyway he could. and score a 100 points for me because for the first time in many many years, it didn't bother me. i didn't cry, i didn't call him a bunch of names (which he so rightfully would deserve) i didn't stoop to his level.

somethings to add to my lists....

favorites:

tv show: gilmore girls, west wing, sex and the city
soda: pepsi, no coke allowed

things i find sexy:

-an itelligent conversation, being able to talk to someone and share ideas

Vanilla Sky

i thought maybe i would post some general information about me. (i'm bored)

height: 5'4"
weight: not gonna tell
eyes: hazel
hair: auburn, with red highlights, naturally curly
facial features: freckles

marital status: divorced
family status: two boys

favorites:

color: navy blue, dark green
pet: i like dogs but have recently switched to cats
day of the week: sunday, especially if i have all my laundry done
place to visit: the beach, preferably monterey or santa cruz
thing to wear: jeans, tshirt, and sneakers
movie: thats a list in itself
baseball team: sf giants
football team: green bay packers
college football team: nebraska cornhuskers
quote: "cross my heart and kiss my elbow", holly golightly, breakfast at tiffany's
thing to say: okie dokie
things to buy: purses and shoes (size 7)
junk food: hot tamales, popcorn

i will come up with more later....

Harry Potter and...(you pick which one)

the boys are spending the day with my dad today. so, i went checked on them on my lunch. my youngest informs me (and shows me) he has a loose tooth. i think i was more excited than him. now he doesn't want to eat anything, it might make his tooth fall out.

my oldest son has a "date" tonight. he is going to a friends house for dinner. this friend of course is a girl. i have talked to her mom a few times now and everything seems ok. hes only 9-1/2, and is already getting dinner invitations by girls. i'm not going to look too much into it.

i miss my blogging friends. i didn't realize how addicted i have become to blogging and reading and commenting on blogs until this week while my friends are gone. i miss reading their posts. *sigh* of course i am reading and commenting on others, but my new friends better hurry and get their asses back to blogging ;)

Curly Sue

so my question of the day is straight hair or curly hair? i would like to know from men specifically if they have a preference. are you more attracted to women that have straight hair or curly hair?

i have naturally curly hair, its shoulder length. the curl isn't a tight, kinky type curl and my hair isn't crazy frizzy curly either. its a nice spiral curl. whenever i get my hair cut, she always straightens it. i like my hair both ways. i look totally different with straight hair. i don't straighten it because its a lot of work, and i believe that hair shouldn't be a lot of work.

so, which is it, curly or straight? or does it depend? of course comments from both sexes is always welcome.

Vertigo

anyone catch the hitchcock flicks on TCM yesterday? a lot of great movies were on. too bad i had to work. not too much happening today. sitting here eating some kettle corn. rainy outside, supposed to rain all week. yuck. makes me want to stay home. i'm still having trouble sleeping. was up til 2:30 this a.m. makes getting up even harder.

gonna get my hair cut today. thats about it for today.

5. take the boys to a SF Giants game. i am a huge giants fan. have been since i was 10. my kids have never been to a baseball game. i think it would be something they would enjoy.

Meet the Fockers

christmas is over and i must say i am glad.

thursday i took my mom and dad to see Meet the Fockers. it was hilarious. not quite as funny as the first one, but still funny. my dad isn't much of a movie watcher and definitely not much of a movie goer, and i could hear him laughing.

friday was quiet. the boys and i went to visit and deliver gifts to my dad and stepmom. not much more to say about that. my dad and i don't have much of a relationship. i can talk to my stepmom, but can hardly have a conversation with my dad. anyways....

saturday was, well, christmas. i got the flu. but, the boys had an amazing day. for the first time in two years they enjoyed christmas. it was very cool.

sunday the boys were supposed to go to their dads and spend a couple of days with him. and instead he decided to just spend the day with them. he spent three hours with them. asshole.

i know theres more to post, maybe later.

It's a Wonderful Life

i know, my title isn't very original, but its appropiate. last blog for the week. i'll be back on monday. i hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas.

Insomnia

so much to post today. i am very tired for one. couldn't get to sleep then woke up and never went back to sleep. last day of the work week for me. its like a ghost town in the building today. no one is here, boss is though. typical.

4. go to a concert. its been 10 years since i've been to a concert (thats embarrassing and pathetic at the same time) i don't know who i'm gonna see or where or who i'm taking, but i'm going.

now, for a new list. whats sexy to me (thanks to vr2020 for the idea) some of these have been mentioned before.

-i have said before kisses on the neck, huge turn on for me, weak in the knees kind of turn on.
-flirting, its fun, its sexy
-making me blush, laugh, or smile.
-feeding me sexy food. example: cheesecake, strawberries.
-small surprises, very sexy. notes, cards, daisies (not a roses person)
-foot massages, no sucking toes
-back rubs
-sharing a shower
-foreplay
-a good smelling man, you know what i mean girls, i don't care if its cologne, aftershave, or just his deoderant (sp?) but smelling good is sexy.

thats a start. will have to come up with more.

Monkey Business

i didn't blog about my weekend yesterday. so i will blog it today.

weekend was pretty good. my aunt and uncle have a weekend home in the mountains, so saturday was spent there. weather was absolutely gorgeous, sunny, not too cold. their house sits on the side of a hill, so the boys entertained themselves by throwing stuff off the balcony and then running down the hill to get it. needless to say they exhausted themselves.

sunday was nice. i spent some birthday money :) i bought some much needed new clothes. i bought some boot cut jeans. i am wearing them today and not quite used them yet. i have never bought boot cut jeans before. its a whole new concept for me. i had seen on the tv show what not to wear that boot cut jeans are supposed to give the illusion of longer legs. my legs still look short to me. i dunno.

finished my christmas shopping yesterday. everything is wrapped and under the tree. actually, i still need to buy two more gifts. is a watch too personal of a gift to give to a guy friend?

i don't feel like working. i'm feeling very chatty and there is no one to talk to. i work in a box of an office by myself. most of the time i don't mind, but today i do. i wish i could get messenger downloaded.

boy, i'm on a roll today.

3. get a massage. it would be nice to get a professional massage. i've never had one before, so i don't know what to expect. but i can imagine it would be nice.

for anyone that likes movies....


great heist movies

2. go to vegas. another place that i've never been to. which is crazy if you think about it. most californians i'm sure have been to vegas. everytime i mention that to someone they are always surprised that i've never been. don't know when i'll go, maybe in november.

i just got an email from ex. tells me he misses me and the boys, he should've appreciated me when he had the chance, he remembers all the good times, yadda, yadda, yadda. wtf? how am i supposed to handle that? he doesn't show for their church play, doesn't show for school play, always an excuse, doesn't have gas money, your family will talk shit about me after i leave. Grrrr!!! the ass doesn't even give me child support. i'm pissed. i want to post so much crap about him, but a part of me is afraid to. what if he comes across the blog? what will happen then. i hate him for still having the control that makes me afraid of him. grrr!!!

moving on for now. hmmm..thinking about SF friend. want to call but i don't want to seem like i'm stalking him.

i need to complain about how cold it is in this office. its freezing. my fingers and the tip of my nose are cold. i'm indoors, it shouldn't be cold. space heater keeps my legs warm as long as i don't move around.

almost time for lunch, i'm hungry and am supposed to do some last minute shopping. forget the shopping.

National Treasure

i saw national treasure friday night. it was a great movie! a definite must see. the boys enjoyed it too. side note: i hate that it costs $8.75 to see a movie. but, i'd say this time it was pretty close to worth it. i'd see it again (maybe at matinee price).

so, a few weeks ago i read a blog and came across the idea to make a list of 25 things to do in 2005. since the year is close to being over i figure i better start my list.

1. go to new york city. i have always wanted to go to new york city. i'm going next year in july. now i just need someone to go with me. i'm going to ask my friend from san francisco first, then if he turns me down, i dunno who. orchid, do you wanna go?

i've started my list. 24 more to go.

Mary Poppins

not too much to blog today. i had a great birthday yesterday and things are quiet today. it is very foggy outside today. yuck. i don't feel like working. been doing some online shopping. bought the boys some new converse for christmas.

they got me a very cool lava lamp for my birthday, its hot pink. hehe. gonna see national treasure tonight, will give a full report on monday.

i would like to thank my new friend teix for my gmail account. i'd give ya a kiss, but your wife might not like that. thank you!!!!

what a great birthday :) ask and i shall receive.

whats the deal with gmail? why do some people have it and i can't get an account? is there a secret handshake or password that i need to know? i am just as special as they few that have it. hey google, its my birthday i want a gmail account.

Sixteen Candles

"they say its your birthday...." yep its my birthday and so far its been good. i plan on doing no work today. just gonna fake working, shuffling papers back and forth on my desk.

i usually embarass pretty easily and i usually don't announce (sp? doesn't look right) my birthday, but today i am. i'm excited! the department i will be working in surprised me and sang me happy birthday and put a banner on my desk that they signed. its was nice and embarassing at the same time.

i am now officially in my 30's. i like it :) its a good thing.

WOOOHOOO!!!!!!!! I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!!!

i did it, i called him. big goofy grin on my face :) i said what i wanted to say. we're going to get together after the holidays.

Office Space

the interview is over and i think it went pretty well. i felt confident and i wasn't as nervous this time. so hopefully there will be a good outcome.

i haven't called him yet. i get nervous thinking about it. i'm afraid that what i want to say won't come out my mouth once i do call. i feel so stupid for being so nervous.

not too much else going on. there is an office gift exchange tomorrow and i can't decide if i want to go or not. tomorrow is my birthday and i don't know if thats how i want to spend my birthday. no alcohol will be involved, and its gossip central around here. everyone loves to talk about everyone else. it drives me crazy. shut up, go back to your desk do your work (or blog), but mind your own damn business. i bought a gift in case i decide to go.

i think i'm gonna take the boys to see National Treasure friday night if its still playing. they also want to see Lemony Snicket. we'll see that next week when they're off school.

now i'm bored, gonna read some blogs.

i'm bored and i want to blog, read and comment on blogs but boss is in the office. will keep trying.

well, thats what i get for working for a school district. i can't install hello and i can't install messenger.

i need some advice.

on saturday my mom kindly took the boys for the day and gave me the day off. i had planned to spend the day with a friend in san francisco. here's the skinny on the friend...

he's a guy friend that i met online a little over a year ago. we have talked on the phone throughout the year and more so within the last few months. hes single, never been married, doesn't have any kids.

so, when i found out about my day off i suggested us meeting. i don't think i have ever been so nervous before in my life. (side note: this is the first time in 13 years that i have been with a man that wasn't my husband). i had a great time and i think he did too. there was some flirting and some kissing and it was all good.

so this is where the much needed advice comes in. do i call him? i would definitely like to see him again and i was sure to tell him that. i haven't heard from him since saturday. i don't know what to do. someone help me please.

Fast Times at Ridgemont High

thought this was interesting....

MSNBC - Dude, you can't be serious

theres a lot i could post today but honestly i don't feel like it. the weather is gray and foggy and fucking cold. i'm cranky. a lot happened over the weekend i'll post about it later.

oh by the way..i can't get hello to work. it will download but i can't open it after that. i hate computers.

-i hate it when people forget to turn off their turn signal.
-i hate it when people drive slower than the speed limit.
-i hate going to the bank or the post office and there is enough teller/work stations for like 10 people and only two people are working and there is 20 people in line.
-i hate the crest strips commercial where the people are dancing around singing, "rip, slip, brush, ahhh" and i hate that i know that because i have seen the commercial so much.
-i hate the automated answering systems. i would just like to talk to a real person. theres like 20 different menu selections and combinations to go thru before i can get any information that i need, and then if i make a mistake, push a wrong number, i have to start all over again.
-i hate that few people say "thank you".
-i hate driving in the fog.
-i hate that it costs $8.00 to go see a movie.
-i hate it when someone doesn't have the consideration to call if they make it to something that they have been invited to.

-i love that out of the blue my boys will give me a hug and kiss on the cheek.
-i love to have a hot towel when i get out of the shower.
-i love spending sundays in my pj's, drinking coffee and enjoying the sunday paper.
-i love surprising the boys. example: i took them to see the midnight showing of spiderman 2.
-i love to be grabbed and kissed. (of course by someone i know)
-i love small surprises.
-i love to spend the day at the beach with a picnic lunch.
-i love to read a good book, with a great beginning and end.
-i love to snuggle.
-i love to be kissed on the neck.
-i love to play poker with good friends.
-i love how my clothes smell after i take them out of the dryer.
-i love getting a card or letter in the mail.
-i love to give someone an unexpected gift.
-i love to make s'mores over a campfire.
-i love that my kids are getting freckles like their mom ;)

as i was going home for lunch today, the radio station i was listening to started to play adam sandler's hanukkah song. i love that song, it reminded me of the good ol' days when SNL was still good and funny. i haven't watched in so long, i don't think i would know anyone on the show anymore.

the sun is out today and it feels so good to be outside.

The Breakfast Club

this is gonna be a short blog for right now. i am buried in work this morning. credit card receipts everywhere. i will blog more after lunch time. have a good one.

my work day is almost done. i am so glad. my mood has gotten a bit better, i'm not so cranky.

i talked to my mom earlier today. my birthday is coming up and she decided to tell me what she had planned for it. she thought it would be a "happy" surprise. she took it upon herself to call my biological dad (parents have been divorced for a every long time, and i always refer to my step-dad as my dad) and invite him to my youngest son's play at school. which happens to fall on the same day as my birthday. she also invited him, my stepmom, my half-sister and her family over to the house afterwards for cake and ice cream. i know my mom did all of this for her love for me. but, she didn't realize that i would invite my soon to be ex to the play also. it doesn't mean that he will show up for his son's play, but i still felt like he should be invited. everyone in my family does not want anything to do with him. which they have every right to feel that way as do i. but, it puts me in a really awkward (sp?) position. now i'm not looking forward to my birthday. i do love my mom for trying, i know she means well...but it makes me want to scream.

tonight after work i will be baking cookies, chocolate covered pretzels and rice crispy treats. and possibly getting drunk ;)

Better off Dead

not too much to say today. weather is wet and windy and gray and cold. i have a ton of work and don't feel like touching any of it. no motivation to work whatsoever. does anyone ever feel motivated to work? i have no trouble getting up early on the weekend to go shopping but getting up at that same time during the week to go work, i can't do it, i hate doing it.

maybe i'll have more later...

well i just found out i didn't get the job. no big. it wasn't meant to be.

Animal House

well, i just tried to post a blog and it didn't post. so shit on blogger. interview went ok yesterday. there were four people on the panel. i will be surprised if i get the job. i felt tongue tied, like i couldn't get anything out my mouth. oh well, today is another day.

i am having trouble getting in the christmas spirit. i think its because christmas for me the last two years have been crappy. this is my first christmas without my husband. i'm trying to focus on the boys and make it happy for them. i wouldn't mind if i could just sleep through it. that would be so much easier than facing it and dealing with the damn holiday.

it is rainy and cold today. a day that is meant to be spent inside, wearing sweats, watching movies, and eating a bowl of chili. if i did that everyday i would be broke, probably homeless, and fat.

back to the paperwork....

this was emailed to me....

Christmas Poem

twas the night before christmas,
he lived all alone,
in a one bedroom house made of
plaster and stone.

i had come down the chimney
with presents to give,
and to see just who
in this home did live.

i looked all about,
a strange sight i did see,
no tinsel, no presents,
not even a tree.

no stocking by mantle,
just boots filled with sand,
on the wall hung pictures
of far distant lands.

with medals and badges,
awards of all kinds,
a sober thought
came through my mind.

for this house was different,
it was dark and dreary,
i found the home of a soldier,
once i could see clearly.

the soldier lay sleeping,
silent, alone,
curled up on the floor
in this one bedroom home.

the face was so gentle,
the room in such disorder,
not how i pictured
a united states soldier.

was this the hero
of whom i'd just read?
curled up on a poncho,
the floor for a bed?

i realized the families
that i saw this night,
owed their lives to these soldiers
who were willing to fight.

soon round the world,
the children would play,
and grownups would celebrate
a bright christmas day.

they all enjoyed freedom
each month of the year,
because of the soldiers,
like the one lying here.

i couldn't help wonder
how many lay alone,
on a cold christmas eve
in a land far from home.

the very thought
brought a tear to my eye,
i dropped to my knees
and started to cry.

the soldier awakened
and i heard a rough voice,
"santa don't cry,
this life is my choice;

i fight for freedom,
i don't ask for more,
my life is my god,
my country, my corps."

the soldier rolled over
and drifted to sleep,
i couldn't control it,
i continued to weep.

i kept watch for hours,
so silent and still
and we both shivered
from the cold night's chill.

i didn't want to leave
on that cold, dark, night,
this guardian of honor
so willing to fight.

then the soldier rolled over,
with a voice soft and pure,
whispered, "carry on santa,
it's christmas day, all is secure."

one look at my watch,
and i knew he was right.
"merry christmas my friend,
and to all a good night."

Casablanca

another monday. i truly hate mondays. i have a job interview today and i don't feel like going. i don't even know if i want the job.

weekend was pretty decent. busy like i thought it would be. i really don't have too much to blog today, i thought i did.

Freaky Friday

happy friday to all. another week gone and time for the weekend. i wanted to thank space case for her idea to make a list of 25 things to do in 2005. so now my wheels are turning and i'm working on my list.

have a great weekend all!

i need a blog tutor. i can do the basics but i get lost with everything else. i'm a basic blogger. a blogging virgin.

Breakfast at Tiffany's

not too much to blog today. its freezing cold. i am very happy that the weekend is almost here. although, i will be extremely busy. tomorrow night is the christmas parade that my boys are participating in, saturday they have a christmas play rehearsal for church, and saturday afternoon is a ladies tea at the church that i will be attending. the christmas season is here whether or not i want it to be. it always amazes me how quickly christmas comes every year. its like in march i always think, "christmas is nine months away..thats a long time from now". then september rolls around and christmas is three months away and i think thats still a lot of time. then all of a sudden its the day after thanksgiving and there are crazy people shopping before the crack of dawn. and boom, its christmas time. it also amazes me how early stores put christmas stuff out. i remember doing costume shopping early october and seeing an aisle of christmas decorations. i am reading Skipping Christmas (the movie Christmas with Kranks is based on this book) and it makes me think about all the insanity that goes on during christmas. trees, lights, santa, decorations, insane shoppers, food you eat that makes you gain 10 pounds, christams parties, $5-$10 gift exchanges. i try so hard every year to budget my shopping and it never fails there is always some kind of gift exchange somewhere. usually at work. but now the boys theres a gift exchange with each of their dens for scouts, and now they are having a gift exchange at their morning day care. its only $5 each. but it all adds up. i do realize that don't have to participate in these gift exchanges, but then they would feel very left out. and i don't want them to feel left out of anything.

christmas for me is all about time with my family. i have gotten to where i don't care if i get any gifts anymore. for me it is so much more fun to give gifts and to watch people open them, especially my kids.

i guess i had more to blog than i thought.