2. go to vegas. another place that i've never been to. which is crazy if you think about it. most californians i'm sure have been to vegas. everytime i mention that to someone they are always surprised that i've never been. don't know when i'll go, maybe in november.

i just got an email from ex. tells me he misses me and the boys, he should've appreciated me when he had the chance, he remembers all the good times, yadda, yadda, yadda. wtf? how am i supposed to handle that? he doesn't show for their church play, doesn't show for school play, always an excuse, doesn't have gas money, your family will talk shit about me after i leave. Grrrr!!! the ass doesn't even give me child support. i'm pissed. i want to post so much crap about him, but a part of me is afraid to. what if he comes across the blog? what will happen then. i hate him for still having the control that makes me afraid of him. grrr!!!

moving on for now. hmmm..thinking about SF friend. want to call but i don't want to seem like i'm stalking him.

i need to complain about how cold it is in this office. its freezing. my fingers and the tip of my nose are cold. i'm indoors, it shouldn't be cold. space heater keeps my legs warm as long as i don't move around.

almost time for lunch, i'm hungry and am supposed to do some last minute shopping. forget the shopping.