Animal House

well, i just tried to post a blog and it didn't post. so shit on blogger. interview went ok yesterday. there were four people on the panel. i will be surprised if i get the job. i felt tongue tied, like i couldn't get anything out my mouth. oh well, today is another day.

i am having trouble getting in the christmas spirit. i think its because christmas for me the last two years have been crappy. this is my first christmas without my husband. i'm trying to focus on the boys and make it happy for them. i wouldn't mind if i could just sleep through it. that would be so much easier than facing it and dealing with the damn holiday.

it is rainy and cold today. a day that is meant to be spent inside, wearing sweats, watching movies, and eating a bowl of chili. if i did that everyday i would be broke, probably homeless, and fat.

back to the paperwork....